Well… Not now.

As you may have read from my last entry, I had the opportunity to start taking new medication. Well…

All I have to say now is…

With all this shit going on in this world right now, I don’t need to go another medication change if nothing is depending on it. I can only focus on one or the other. Not going for both. Maybe someday down the road. Maybe. Someday.

Ah, A New Neurologist

Ok. I have been in the need for a new Neurologist a very long time. With “long time” meaning years. I go and see a new one here in the town where I live. “She” is what I need. Yes… a female Neurologist. Never had one of those.

So, we meet for the first time. I tell her my story about everything dealing with this thing between my ears. She asks me what I need…

“New medication. I’m tired of this other one that is forcing me to wear this brace.”

So now, I “just started” a new med. As you guys may know, a person with medication for seizures isn’t a “easy to change” thing. Have to slowly get on the new medication, then get off the old. Cannot be completely off seizure meds at any time.

So, that’s where I’m at. When I make it through this change, I’m sure I’ll think differently like I usually have in the past. We’ll wait and see…

This Brace

I just knew there has to be something good out of having this wrist-brace. I can receive sympathy from strangers (girls) when the brace can be seen on my wrist. Nearly impossible to get sympathy from anyone concerning brain surgery. Can’t see brain surgery. People don’t really believe stories about brain surgery. But with this BRACE on my WRIST… oh, I can get all kinds of reactions upon seeing THAT.

You know, these “girls” coming up and asking:
“Oh, what happened? Does it hurt?”

My reply:
“It hurts after being in a fight… just a bit.”
…and then I stick my arm out there for them to see it.

ha… ha… ha…

Yeah, a fight.
Not brain surgery.

This Wrist

I’m still in pain from the tremor. Not as bad? Let me explain…

Last week on Friday, I saw a new doctor where I told her about my increased tremor. She understood what I was saying and told me that I’d be seeing some other doctors to get a better idea of what needs to be helped and/or fixed. Fixed? Well, that would be GREAT, but I believe that all this is happening because of one (or more) side-effects of the seizure medications I take. A major (but not common) side-effect is a, or increased, tremor. So…

Let me show you what this FIRST doctor gave me to constantly wear. Drum roll, please….

Okay, this was one of the first fittings I was trying to redo. Little tight in this picture, but I got it fixed. Basically I was ordered:

“Wear this now and ALL DAY & EVERYDAY. … just not while you take a shower.”

“So, how long am I going to wear this? Forever and Ever?”

“Yes. Forever and Ever.”

Holy Crap! This is not fun when you have a permanent tremor on the right-side of your body and this is trying to hold it still. The wrist is held like a board, but my elbow & fingers are still shaking. Drinking coffee while I type this doesn’t help either. We’ll just see how long THIS lasts….

Okay, lets go ahead with this Orthopedic doctor that I saw yesterday. Basically it was…

“Does this hurt when I do this?”

“Well, the first time you moved it & squeezed it, it hurt. The second and third times, it didn’t hurt.”


Kept trying to make it hurt, but he was unsuccessful. Told me there wasn’t any way he could help me. (For some reason or another)

NEXT!

Better….

I’m better now after the last days of serious pain in my right wrist/hand. I would guess it’s the pain medication I’m on? Maybe, probably. But, I am somewhat feeling better for now.

I’ll get it “entirely fixed”. Really!someday.

This thing won’t stop!

What really sucks about this tremor is that it still HURTS. This thing won’t stop its tremendous shaking. I DID finally (because of someone else telling me to) go to one of those walk-in clinics to get it checked out. Yeah, the doctor said it didn’t look good and he had me do some x-rays. This was interesting. A lady was having me sit in a chair with my arm rested on a table with a scanner above it. She’d walk to another room, press a button and then came back. I told her that my arm was “shaking” while that was being done. She told me it wasn’t a problem. (Fast X-Ray?)

The doctor took a look at my x-ray and told me that it wasn’t broken.

“So… You just going to drug me up and call it good-enough for now?”

Basically, that was it. I now have a bottle of Meloxicam that I take once a day. So, I took one when I got home today and, well, it still hurts. The one good thing is that since I have Medicare (because nearly ALL the stuff previously talked about) so that it didn’t cost me anything. 🙂 Heck of a deal, huh? (ok, the medication was $2…)

But still, even with this LOW price, I would love to be guaranteed 100% satisfaction at the moment I swallow one of those pills.

This Arm HURTS

This right-arm of mine has recently become more and more drastic in the sense that it shakes incredibly worse. My fingers and my wrist are really bad. It hurts SO MUCH. Before, I would need to hold something to “hold it still”, but now my entire arm hurts from the shaking. This is killing me.

Earlier in my life, I was able to entirely relax my arm (easy at night while sleeping) and it wouldn’t shake “at all”. Now, that doesn’t seem to matter anymore. Then again, at this very moment my arm seems okay when it is entirely relaxed and this “brain of mine” is focused on typing. Today (for once) I am going to “try” and take the time for this ENTIRE DAY to NOT drink my coffee or soda. TRY is the keyword. “try…”

I’ll see what happens with that. So far nothing has changed. Still shakes and hurts.