Today (Thursday) I actually (get ready for this…) TOOK A NAP! Did this right after lunch. Woah! That makes one hell of a difference there. I can function more normally… no… “a bit better“…

That’s a nice “description” phrase. Eh…? And this was the most exciting part of my day today. Good Idea. 🙂

On Wednesday, did a few things more than today.

First, I had to get up, which is an entirely awake period.

I ate lunch at noon and had to call for a taxi to get me and take me to the nearby hospital for therapy. By this time of the day, I’m half-way tired. I got to the hospital at 1:10 and the therapy was at 1:45. By 1:45, I was tired. Very, very tired. The therapist called me back to do our stuff consisting of vocabulary words and so forth. Parts of that “testing” I have been very used to and have done a decent job on before. Not yesterday. I was struggling BAD at that work.

Lastly yesterday at 5:00, I saw my psychiatrist. As compared to the way I have been able to speak, think and act in the past, he was impressed in the way I was communicating with him yesterday. Maybe my body was thinking that I had relaxed or something. I (as a WHOLE PERSON) was impressed with myself too.

Oh.. I forgot to mention. The AC was out on the house for the last couple days and just happens to be the hottest two damn days of this year so far. Not sleeping well. Think that makes the difference in as far as the therapy in the hospital? Probably.

What was it again yesterday that I was typing about? Only took me a couple hours to do it then: get it out of my head, through my fingers and onto a keyboard to show up on the screen.

Today it beautiful here in KC (again) for the moments that I type THESE CERTAIN CHARACTERS on my keyboard. Maybe not these. But those were a nice feeling time. Still not too bad right now. 

Listening to this internet music through the speaker and phone is nice really nice today. This is nice probably because I have this station where the DJ speaks some foreign language that I don’t understand, but all the songs are in English and “some” of them I know. This isn’t new to me because I’ve heard these things before. (Trust me, this is NOT a new “Internet” thing at all.) Just interesting to find stations I haven’t heard every once in awhile.

Yep, still feels good outside by the time I got that paragraph done.

Something I should do soon is to ride my bike up and get my hair cut on my “permanently wavy and bumpy” head top after the cuts. This should entertain the hair cutters, just as long as my hair isn’t being pulled like crazy. AAAAAA!

That was quick to type and get out. This is quick thoughts I’m getting out of my head.

It is… ehhh… 1:45.  I need to eat lunch or something like that. I think I forgot breakfast, too…

Recently, I have been sitting outside to enjoy the weather outside and listen to music through an external speaker using radio stations from around the world from my cell phone. I think the audio is excellent too. 🙂 I’m sure you have the same on your mind too.

I sit here and do this all afternoon while I listen to the radio and just think. And think. And think. I would have a thought, “Oh, that’s good one. I should put that in my… That thing I type into on my computer to talk to people about things.. That Catalpa Chronicles thing. That’s a type of…” I give up. I can’t remember.

But, at least, I did remember WHERE it was and decided to SIT HERE until any previous thoughts I had came back to me. Ok…

What was I waiting for? This is good music from… another part of the USA.

Let me sit. This is what I was listening to today.

This isn’t getting me anywhere now.

Okay, okay, okay… I was remembering all this real good earlier when it was before I started this… thing I’m typing here now. BLOG! Damn, that’s what this is called! Now what the hell was I going to type into it just now? Hmmmm… Maybe I just need to think some more about this tiresome subject and try again tomorrow? Can’t hurt. This head of mine hasn’t hurt me for the longest time since allot of its healing and so forth.

I’ll be back… Tomorrow… If I remember to…

what am I remembering?

That reading and questions thing that I have been doing in the therapy class I take is something I forget that I am currently doing and have trouble with. I got this book. It’s called Is God a Mathematician? by Mario Livio. Looked like a book on Amazon that would be very interesting. I bought a clean used version for $2.

So, for me it’s like if I was just a kid trying to read this book. My eyes are not understanding any “regular speed” reading when it comes to this book. It’s got quite a few “big words” that my eyes won’t even pay attention to unless I’m going REAL SLOW. Also, when I’m done with a paragraph I can’t always remember what I just read very good at all. Reading and remembering is part of my “uh, I’m a brain that is currently SUFFERING” thing.  This is going to take a while….

Now, this isn’t true all the time. It IS getting better. I went to therapy just yesterday and had about a half-dozen stories read to me with questions asked afterward. I was getting better and better as it went on. What was the whole ordeal on those? After time, I heard enough stories that I could pay attention to important words to answer most of the questions. I could get my brain to listen to the right things in these stores. Did I ever get ALL the questions answered right for one of the stories? No. The last one story I had only missed one. The hardest one was that question about something that did not deal with any of the important words that I was memorizing my brain out for a length of seconds.